LIFE

life is such a complicated things. more harder to be described than the meaning of love (even im not even know the meaning of both words).

i would say, my life wasnt perfect. But well no one have the perfect one.
Every single step I took is such a struggle, I didn't said I've choose the best one of every options that I had.
Young, free and careless always be my reason for every wrong step I've taken. Well the main problem is most of the decision was wrong...it doesn't make a sense how could every bad things come to me without any permission.

I have such a complicated things which make me uncomfortable. When everyone critics on me I just feels like they judges me, they always blame me. make me feel like I'm the fool one. It still okay until now, I can hold on. But I have a boiling points, I can be so upset.


Love. Ah another uncomfortable thing to share. I might be very grateful if there's someone could really love me. I mean, just care enough for me, spend your time by thinking of me. But I just haven't found a guy who really felt that way to me, that's maybe why I still doubt every boys outthere. They asked "how can I make you in love with me?" Then the answer would be you must not asked that to me cause I will be the one whom would ask you 'how could you make me fall for you?'. Really guys I don't wanna play on you, not even one of you. This things has a serious meaning for me. I could be very welcoming for everyone, really don't look at my past. that a mess. heal me.

I don't know why I wrote this, maybe I just hope there's someone who will read this and trying to understand me more. Cause that what I wanted to be. Really.