have you ever feel like disposed to the lowest ground someone could be? do you know how it feels to lose all your sense of everything? have you ever cry in the middle of doing nothing nor thinking about anything? have you ever found no words to describe how you feel? have you ever feel so empty till you cant think about anything, you just cry? do you know how it feels when all your sacrifices now payed off by pains? have you ever lose yourself just to let someone you love could feel much better? have you ever let go things you need the most, things you love the most just because you want them to be free and happy? have you ever pretend like everything is okay but inside you screaming and no one hears you? have you ever let someone you love the most to love someone else they love the most? have you ever still pray the best for the person that hurt you the most? do you know how it feels to fight with yourself that you gotta be okay very soon but inside you know that you cant? have you ever put trust on someone that actually doesn’t need it? have you ever act like world now fall upon you?
i’m almost healed but when im about to reach the top, someone just hit me to that lowest ground, again. im sick of tears. my head feels like 160tons. i should have known that this is not a fairy tale. i should have not to believe in chances. i should have known which one is real and which one that fake. we once real and now it feels like a nightmare. i never thought you’d back to my life. i never expect for more than your presence as a friend. but we said different, we want more tho we dont know is it right or wrong. im not regretting any single thing i’ve done, every decisions i’ve taken. tho now it just hit me back. i just want you to know, this is really hard to me, im not lying. i will let you go for your happiness, for ‘everyone’ happiness. its okay to let go if its for your best.
i just want to thank you, for what we’ve done these past few months. that was unforgettable. i hope you would never forget me. i hope you’d remember me, the person whom now living as dead person because she wants you to be happy, she wants to see you growing up as a better person soon. she wants you to be decisive. she wants you to not hurt anyone else, just her. dont you think im letting you go because i dont care, i care, a lot. actually that’s why i leave, i want you to learn how it feels to live without the person that you love, how it feels when you cant get all you want, learn how to appreciate things you have before it turns become things you had. tho its killing me excessively, but its okay. i know you’re a cool kid, there’s tons who loves you, who cares you, just please appreciate them, dont hurt them, keep them save. please kills all of your selfishness, your unclear thoughts. learn to be honest, to yourself first, to others next.
im sorry for being not patient enough for you, im sorry sometimes i didnt listen to your order, im sorry i’ve been too selfish, too stubborn, too jealousy, too possessive. im sorry for loving you too much. im sorry i cant understand you enough to make you realize. im sorry i cant make you feel what i truly feel. im sorry if sometimes i have to tells you a lie. im sorry i cant be that special so i cant replaced her. im sorry i am not that person you’re searching at. im sorry i sometimes hurts your feeling. im sorry i have ever tell an impolite words. im sorry sometimes i make you jealous with everyone around me. im sorry if you think that im still in love with him. im sorry i made you tired, i made you screwed, i made you frustrated, i made you cry. i am really sorry.
i still remember the post i made about few months ago, talking about you came back and now i talk about a goodbye. im not regret it, really not. i just reallize, some peoples are meant to fall in love but some others arent meant to be together. this is a real goodbye i guess, i hope you could take care of yourself first and take care of her next. dont judge me by writting this post, actually i just dont know what to do :) okay this post has been too long, i gotta stop. i’ll be okay, i’ll be healed again very soon, you dont need to feel guilty.
goodnight.
i’m almost healed but when im about to reach the top, someone just hit me to that lowest ground, again. im sick of tears. my head feels like 160tons. i should have known that this is not a fairy tale. i should have not to believe in chances. i should have known which one is real and which one that fake. we once real and now it feels like a nightmare. i never thought you’d back to my life. i never expect for more than your presence as a friend. but we said different, we want more tho we dont know is it right or wrong. im not regretting any single thing i’ve done, every decisions i’ve taken. tho now it just hit me back. i just want you to know, this is really hard to me, im not lying. i will let you go for your happiness, for ‘everyone’ happiness. its okay to let go if its for your best.
i just want to thank you, for what we’ve done these past few months. that was unforgettable. i hope you would never forget me. i hope you’d remember me, the person whom now living as dead person because she wants you to be happy, she wants to see you growing up as a better person soon. she wants you to be decisive. she wants you to not hurt anyone else, just her. dont you think im letting you go because i dont care, i care, a lot. actually that’s why i leave, i want you to learn how it feels to live without the person that you love, how it feels when you cant get all you want, learn how to appreciate things you have before it turns become things you had. tho its killing me excessively, but its okay. i know you’re a cool kid, there’s tons who loves you, who cares you, just please appreciate them, dont hurt them, keep them save. please kills all of your selfishness, your unclear thoughts. learn to be honest, to yourself first, to others next.
im sorry for being not patient enough for you, im sorry sometimes i didnt listen to your order, im sorry i’ve been too selfish, too stubborn, too jealousy, too possessive. im sorry for loving you too much. im sorry i cant understand you enough to make you realize. im sorry i cant make you feel what i truly feel. im sorry if sometimes i have to tells you a lie. im sorry i cant be that special so i cant replaced her. im sorry i am not that person you’re searching at. im sorry i sometimes hurts your feeling. im sorry i have ever tell an impolite words. im sorry sometimes i make you jealous with everyone around me. im sorry if you think that im still in love with him. im sorry i made you tired, i made you screwed, i made you frustrated, i made you cry. i am really sorry.
i still remember the post i made about few months ago, talking about you came back and now i talk about a goodbye. im not regret it, really not. i just reallize, some peoples are meant to fall in love but some others arent meant to be together. this is a real goodbye i guess, i hope you could take care of yourself first and take care of her next. dont judge me by writting this post, actually i just dont know what to do :) okay this post has been too long, i gotta stop. i’ll be okay, i’ll be healed again very soon, you dont need to feel guilty.
goodnight.
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